I am

I am the wind that
wants to wail
I am the gale force
that rips through
I am the hurricane
that rages
I am the tornado
that lays waste
I am the wind that
scours bare
I am the wind that
wants to howl

I am the flame that
wants to burn
I am the fire that
wants to devour
I am the hearth-fire
I am the forest fire
I am the match that
Lights the peace pipe
and the crack pipe
I am the fire
I am the flame that
wants to burn

I am the water that
wants to be poured out
I am the rivers that
are dammed up,
I am the tears held back
I am the seas swelling
I am the skies weeping and
I am the land flooding
I am the water that
wants to be poured out

I am the clay that
wants to be shaped
I am the rocks
I am the stones, the pebbles
I am the boulders
I am the bones
Of the earth
I am the hills and
the mountains and
all the high places
I am the clay that
wants to be shaped

Into the Night

I am lit with the fire
Seared by the heat
Scorched to the soul
Lifted
By your sorcery
Tonight
This night
All things are possible
I spread my wings and
The darkness is a safe place
To fly

The Long-Awaited Charlotte Show

This show was rescheduled 4 times! This intimate venue was full though, and the mood was good, if laid-back. Happy to meet many sweet Echelon, including the ballsy one-legged guy who got up on stage - dude! And still not sure what to think about the guys being unwilling to come out after...I understand needing a break from the scene, but I feel like why did it have to be on our night, when we waited so long and we are so far off the beaten path? I think they have lost touch to a certain extent, and I guess that is inevitable. I don't want to whine. If there is anything I do want to complain about it is the venue, the Fillmore, they were very annoying, not only would they not only not even consider letting me hang the banner, they wouldn't let us take in glow stuff or water.

Norfolk and Virginia Beach

Isn't this flag neat? This is the Nauticus museum in Norfolk, which is mostly naval history.
Now that whole big thing is "just this big"
Marley is taller than me now!
We enjoyed the museum, but we needed Papa Jerry to give us the rundown on what we were seeing!

Marley has the con - watch out!
Going across to board the Battleship USS Wisconsin - part of the Nauticus museum.
I love this picture of Marley! Right after this we saw some other Echelon (fans of 30 Seconds to Mars) who were in town for the show and doing the tourist thing also. (You shall know them by their t-shirts :) This reminded me of the old days on tour with the Grateful Dead, we would always see other deadheads in the art museums...good times, happy to be making new memories!
That's some big guns behind us!

We were quite impressed with the tininess of the living quarters and what it must take to live at sea.

Mars on deck
My crazy guys.
the sand is different in VA...they add to the beach differently up there I think - interesting.
I found this boy washed up on the beach...
last stop was a place called Abbey Road
we had a nice trip, were very impressed by the boardwalk and bike lanes at the beach and think we would enjoy going back.

30 Seconds to Mars in Norfolk

Jared sings his acoustic songs right behind my banners! This just made my night! Oh, and when he complimented them from the stage, that was lovely, made all the hard work worthwhile! I have never done anything like making these big banners, never really painted on fabric much, so to create a design, like I did with the triad one, and then execute it so closely to how I envisioned it, was really exciting.This picture is fun because you can see me and Marley in the upper left! Also Tomo's wearing a Birthday hat!

It is almost Lammas

Here are Klimt's beautiful sunflowers, and Terry has been bringing us the bounty of the Earth, it is not hard to feel the gratitude of the season! Here is Starhawk's explanation of the holiday. Her words seem especially meaningful this year.

Lammas
Lammas is the ancient Celtic festival at the beginning of harvest time. "Lughnasad" is the Irish name for this festival; it was a time of fairs, trading and celebration.
Now, when the days grow visibly shorter and the sun seems to decline, the crops ripen. So too, when we work for justice, when we have expended huge energies to bring about change, the results often come only when the tides of enthusiasm and urgency seem to be ebbing. When the marching and the shouting die away, public opinion quietly shifts.
Lammas means 'loaf-mass', the festival where we honor and celebrate the grain and the food that sustains our life. In a just world, no one would go hungry. All people would have access to good quality food - organic, fresh, local, and truly nourishing.
The grain stands golden in the fields, but has not yet been gathered in. We stand poised between hope and fear. Lammas is a time of consequence, when we reap what we have sown. Globally, we are now reaping the consequences of decades of injustice, of neglect, and exploitation of the earth. Will we make the change, in time to avert disaster? Will we reap destruction, or harvest a new world based on harmony, balance and love? Our choices and actions will tip the scales.
- Starhawk 2007

Triad

A Million little pieces...

30 Seconds to Mars in Atlanta April 29, 2010

We walked over to the show as it was getting dark. I was worried they might give me trouble about bringing the presents in, but the guy at the door was very sweet. The Tabernacle was amazing. An old church, the interior has been painted on every surface. It was packed with people. I really think they should have played the Fox. Next time! We went to the upper level and discovered that there were no seats to be had, so I asked about the handicapped area, and eventually we ended up over on the left side (Tomo’s side) um, Jared’s right, right even with the stage. We had a great view.

More importantly, considering the heat in the place, we had cool air blowing on us. It was perfect. Ben got great pictures. The show was awesome. He makes it look effortless. In fact, after he came out of the crowd during the Kill, I looked at him very carefully, expecting him to be breathless, or to show some sign of what he’d just done – none. Total casualness. Crazy. How you could have all those people all over you and not have to shake it off a bit…

It was great, it is all out there with Mars, what you needed the psychedelics to see with the Dead you can see with your bare eyes – and feel viscerally with Mars. When Jared gets everyone going for the end of Search and Destroy it is a beautiful thing. Then there is the craziness of everyone bodysurfing up to take part in Kings & Queens and he calls the kids up and puts them on Shann’s riser…and of course Kings & Queens is the grand finale. Then there is the afterglow and the mad dash to find the merch booth in the basement before they kick us out and the disappointment that there is nothing left to buy. No small stuff, no 2x tees, none of the first 2 cds. Out then to the barricade around the busses with the other die hards hoping for autographs, everyone grumbling because no one knows what’s going on. I don’t care about the autographs; I want to give them jewelry I have made, chocolate for Tomo and airborne to help get Jared well. I have to scribble on the card I made because I have been too nervous to write it properly. It has been hard to believe – the real guys – out of the ether.

Wow! Was I ever surprised, shocked and amazed! Everyone completely fooled me with the planning of this party, and I was really touched by the effort that went into it. My mom mad the great posters, Elizabeth did the shirts, Hyla donated her house - and of course Ben. Oh and Jim made the beautiful and yummy cake and T did so much - and then couldn't be there.
The shirts were so great!
My mom made the wonderful posters.And my sweet husband engineered the whole thing.My son, Marley and my mom, Suzanne. To the right is the wall where they projected video of the band all night long - it was great!
30 Seconds to Mars has made me feel younger, more vital, energetic and inspired than I have in a long time. Which is a good thing! It is what we need from our artists.